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The first is always quieting deeply…

As nourishing light begins to pour in, and there is the light rush/hum of
changes in the brain and the feeling throughout the center of the body,
it is strangely active and deeply restful at the same time.
In between periods of no-thought, I may pray in some such…

I am not a body
I am free
for I am still as God created me.

No thing I think, No thing I do, No thing
that happens, no change can violate this eternal peace
my safety.

I cannot be harmed by you.
I cannot harm you.
I’ve no thing to do but love you.

Would I choose to imagine you are upsetting
or feel threatened or offended in any way?
That could only be my own thoughts making you into something,
That you are not.
I will own that it is my own fantasy making that makes you un-beautiful, ever.

You are not a body, you are free,
You are still as God created you to be.
I thank you for being perfect as you appear to me now.

And you are only me.
I am you.

I give you my peace. I give you my love.
May my love of you be all there is.
May you know only peace.

May my compassion be endless.
May my patience be unending.
May my gentleness be uninterrupted, for ever and ever.
May I always be here for you.
May I release you from any burdens I would apply to you.

I am unending.
What would be beautiful?
What would I love?
What will fill me with peace?

“In the spectrum of BEIng, some may choose to surround themselves with light, while many others will choose to surround themselves in darkness, either way IT all stems from our choice. When we do not know what we want, our unconscious mind will make these decisions for us, whispering thoughts from our conditioned past, which keeps us limited within cycles of darkness. Surrounded by darkness, some may feel empowered by the rush, but their care is only for themselves, as a worship of ego can become like a religion for some, which is just like worshiping a myth or a ghost. They may create a strong ‘image’ of the self, but they lack the art of relationship and integration, for without that, One can only do so much alone. As Lao Tzu wrote in the Tao Te Ching:

‘Tao gives birth to one,
One gives birth to two,
Two gives birth to three,
Three gives birth to ten thousand beings.
Ten thousand beings carry yin on their backs
and embrace yang in their front,
Blending these two vital breaths to attain harmony.’

As this is the main problem with the western ego mind in general, for they have split themselves in two, and have allowed the unconscious darkness to flow and work through themselves UN-noticed.

Twice today on FB did others shine a light on the straddle that’s being tested here… In a private channeling with immortals, I was given good direction to pay attention to this and go into it – it is a simultaneity of perspective, simultaneity of consciousness – maybe even as a container for vacillation… where I find the place where I am at odds with nothing, including maintaining my greater perspective while being at odds with something. There is a flow…Jeff Brown is a terrific gift, a healing presence for us I am grateful for, and in this morning he attempts this straddle in one of his posts. – I identify with the effort, and struggle, and also find there are places in it where I see contradiction, not completeness – but then another chimed in as well… this territory contains more than can be told…

It is possible to hold it all at once.
To fight against injustice while still embodying the light.
To see where we are lacking, while rejoicing in our abundance.
To express our anger, and to live our gratitude.
To feel overwhelmed by an unfair world, while still achieving our goals.
To admit how far we have yet to travel, while applauding how far we have come.~ Jeff Brown, Toronto

“To deny the reality of things is to miss their reality;
to assert the emptiness of things is to miss their reality.
The more you talk and think about it,
the further astray you wander from the truth.
Stop talking and thinking
and there is nothing you will not be able to know.”

~ Seng Ts’an

The majority of nights since January, I have ceased to label my not sleeping as insomnia, because I realized the time is presenting itself to me, and I love the special quality of solitude and quiet.  But the mind, the consciousness, the body , the nervous system do need rest. Deep meditation provides this in a quantitative way… but my nights have turned into a kind of Inter-dimensional Gateway Altered State Workshop that is some accidental hybrid of kundalini yoga, yoga nidra, lucid dreaming, prayer, meditation, visualization, communication and I’m not sure what.  It’s certainly a great time, so I can’t help but recommend it, even in addition to all the good effects that have been coming from it.

Last night was an interesting marker. I hardly slept at all, and had a “blast” of a kind of kundalini energy meditation something that seemed to run it’s natural course in 45 minutes or so. I opened my eyes completely, in the dark, and thought, “It’s 4:04 a.m.” – it took a moment to find the phone. It was 4:05a.m.

I do not know what that means, but it’s kinda fun.

I friend in a stressful situation tonite, with a loved one feeling ill, texted me at 10:30. I notice the story I’m met with – that transcendence of the upset at hand is not on the agenda: tonite a hypnosis tape may help, but we’ll be stopping short of medication unless completely necessary to achieve a much needed but low quality sleep.  When I take a risk and suggest it may be a time to draw strength from God, I discover that I haven’t got the right audience for that language, and have to translate to “higher self” right away.

And so, I am reminded exactly the way I want to be, and am so grateful: each of us comes upon our relationship to our spiritual resources in the course of our story, and through the symbols and words that arrive when the time has come. Do I know what will happen for my friend this year? This lifetime? Nope.

May I be guided to be a well of what is needed, at the right time, and nothing else.
I used to be so eager to be A Helper – but that presumes knowledge of the situation that it is vain for me to imagine. I know my success, my peace my joy, and others, comes as I let go of my self-definition and the ego play of that… I found the medicine.

I have been using an opening prayer from ACIM like a mantra this year…

I am here only to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Him who sent me.
I do not have to worry about what to say, or what to do,
because Him who sent me with direct me.
I am happy to be wherever He chooses,
because I know he goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.

Light abounding. Blessings…

From Chapter 27 of A Course in Miracles –

VIII. The ‘Hero’ of the Dream

The body is the central figure in the dreaming of the world. There is no dream without it, nor does it exist without the dream in which it acts as if it were a person to be seen and be believed. It takes the central place in every dream, which tells the story of how it was made by other bodies, born into the world outside the body, lives a little while and dies, to be united in the dust with other bodies dying like itself. In the brief time allotted it to live, it seeks for other bodies as its friends and enemies. Its safety is its main concern. Its comfort is its guiding rule. It tries to look for pleasure, and avoid the things that would be hurtful. Above all, it tries to teach itself its pains and joys are different and can be told apart.

The dreaming of the world takes many forms, because the body seeks in many ways to prove it is autonomous and real. It puts things on itself that it has bought with little metal discs or paper strips the world proclaims as valuable and real. It works to get them, doing senseless things, and tosses them away for senseless things it does not need and does not even want. It hires other bodies, that they may protect it and collect more senseless things that it can call its own. It looks about for special bodies that can share its dream. Sometimes it dreams it is a conqueror of bodies weaker than itself. But in some phases of the dream, it is the slave of bodies that would hurt and torture it.

The body’s serial adventures, from the time of birth to dying are the theme of every dream the world has ever had. The ‘hero’ of this dream will never change, nor will its purpose. Though the dream itself takes many forms, and seems to show a great variety of places and events wherein its ‘hero’ finds itself, the dream has but one purpose, taught in many ways. This single lesson does it try to teach again, and still again, and yet once more; that it is cause and not effect. And you are its effect, and cannot be its cause.

Thus are you not the dreamer, but the dream. And so you wander idly in and out of places and events that it contrives. That this is all the body does is true, for it is but a figure in a dream. But who reacts to figures in a dream unless he sees them as if they were real? The instant that he sees them as they are they have no more effects on him, because he understands he gave them their effects by causing them and making them seem real.

How willing are you to escape effects of all the dreams the world has ever had? Is it your wish to let no dream appear to be the cause of what it is you do? Then let us merely look upon the dream’s beginning, for the part you see is but the second part, whose cause lies in the first. No one asleep and dreaming in the world remembers his attack upon himself. No one believes there really was a time when he knew nothing of a body, and could never have conceived this world as real. He would have seen at once that these ideas are one illusion, too ridiculous for anything but to be laughed away. How serious they now appear to be! And no one can remember when they would have met with laughter and with disbelief. We can remember this, if we but look directly at their cause. And we will see the grounds for laughter, not a cause for fear.

Let us return the dream he gave away unto the dreamer, who perceives the dream as separate from himself and done to him. Into eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at which the Son of God remembered not to laugh. In his forgetting did the thought become a serious idea, and possible of both accomplishment and real effects. Together, we can laugh them both away, and understand that time cannot intrude upon eternity. It is a joke to think that time can come to circumvent eternity, which means there is no time.

A timelessness in which is time made real; a part of God that can attack itself; a separate brother as an enemy; a mind within a body all are forms of circularity whose ending starts at its beginning, ending at its cause. The world you see depicts exactly what you thought you did. Except that now you think that what you did is being done to you. The guilt for what you thought is being placed outside yourself, and on a guilty world that dreams your dreams and thinks your thoughts instead of you. It brings its vengeance, not your own. It keeps you narrowly confined within a body, which it punishes because of all the sinful things the body does within its dream. You have no power to make the body stop its evil deeds because you did not make it, and cannot control its actions nor its purpose nor its fate.

The world but demonstrates an ancient truth; you will believe that others do to you exactly what you think you did to them. But once deluded into blaming them you will not see the cause of what they do, because you want the guilt to rest on them. How childish is the petulant device to keep your innocence by pushing guilt outside yourself, but never letting go! It is not easy to perceive the jest when all around you do your eyes behold its heavy consequences, but without their trifling cause. Without the cause do its effects seem serious and sad indeed. Yet they but follow. And it is their cause that follows nothing and is but a jest.

In gentle laughter does the Holy Spirit perceive the cause, and looks not to effects. How else could He correct your error, who have overlooked the cause entirely? He bids you bring each terrible effect to Him that you may look together on its foolish cause and laugh with Him a while. You judge effects, but He has judged their cause. And by His judgement are effects removed. Perhaps you come in tears. But hear Him say, ‘My brother, holy Son of God, behold your idle dream, in which this could occur’. And you will leave the holy instant with your laughter and your brother’s joined with His.

The secret of salvation is but this: That you are doing this unto yourself. No matter what the form of the attack, this still is true. Whoever takes the role of enemy and of attacker, still is this the truth. Whatever seems to be the cause of any pain and suffering you feel, this is still true. For you could not react at all to figures in a dream you knew that you were dreaming. Let them be as hateful and as vicious as they may, they could have no effect on you unless you failed to recognise it is your dream.

This single lesson learned will set you free from suffering, whatever form it takes. The Holy Spirit will repeat this one inclusive lesson of deliverance until it has been learned, regardless of the form of suffering that brings you pain. Whatever hurt you bring to Him He will make answer with this very simple truth. For this one answer takes away the cause of every form of sorrow and of pain. The form affects His answer not at all, for He would teach you but the single cause of all of them, no matter what their form. And you will understand that miracles reflect the simple statement, ‘I have done this thing, and it is this I would undo’.

Bring, then, all forms of suffering to Him Who knows that every one is like the rest. He sees no differences where none exists, and He will teach you how each one is caused. None has a different cause from all the rest, and all of them are easily undone by but a single lesson truly learned. Salvation is a secret you have kept but from yourself. The universe proclaims it so. Yet to its witnesses you pay no heed at all. For they attest the thing you do not want to know. They seem to keep it secret from you. Yet you need but learn you chose but not to listen, not to see.

How differently will you perceive the world when this is recognised! When you forgive the world your guilt, you will be free of it. Its innocence does not demand your guilt, nor does your guiltlessness rest on its sins. This is the obvious; a secret kept from no one but yourself. And it is this that has maintained you separate from the world, and kept your brother separate from you. Now need you but to learn that both of you are innocent or guilty. The one thing that is impossible is that you be unlike each other; that they both be true. This is the only secret yet to learn. And it will be no secret you are healed.